I'm in love

[yesthattom]

One thing I love about Chris is that I can vent to her when I’m upset or (more usually) worried or confused and she listens. She doesn’t get upset. It doesn’t scare her and send her into a depressed, scared state. She understands that by the time I’m done speaking I’ll have worked out my issue, since usually naming a problem relieves the stress and helps one move on or work it out. It was really difficult for me to learn this. I couldn’t tell my ex anything bad without me receiving negative repercussions. As a result I developed a terrible habit of holding things in, which of course made matters worse. It was so refreshing to be able to vent with Chris. What is this mystery feelings I’m experiencing? I can’t quite name it, mostly because my brain is filled with guilt for even “using” her like this. Recently I told her that I feel so bad about “using” her to vent. She smiled and told me that I’m always supportive of her, and she’s glad to do the same for her. Oh, that’s the word I was looking for. Support. It had been so long I couldn’t remember what it was like.

[Note: Since my “ex” (yes, that “ex”) I’ve been with other bfs/gfs, many of which have LJ’s and I don’t want to discount the support I’ve received from them, it was always very generous. So maybe this post is an exaggeration, but I definitely have been feeling wonderfully connected to Chris in a way I haven’t felt before and I’m extremely happy.]

Comments

[rainbear.livejournal.com]

I have to say... every time I see you with Chris, you're both so relaxed and happy around each other. It's really a nice sight, Tom. I'm glad you found each other! :)

[puzzld1.livejournal.com]

She is a wonderful partner to you. I Am so glad you found each other. And she's a hottie!

[emmett-the-sane.livejournal.com]

Awesome!

I am the same way... often just externalising something lets me dump 90% of the tension surrounding it.

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

Yay happy!